**note to self: avoid all dark alleys--especially ones with suspicious looking strangers.**
there are so many what-ifs! i can't possibly know the answer to them. the fear of the unknown--it'll getcha every time if you let it. deeeeeeeeep breath! let's do a little worst case scenario analysis here:
where will i stay?-- there is always somewhere to stay. hopefully a cheap hotel/hostel. but even if the absolute worst happens (can't find a place within my budget), i can always sleep in my car or outside. i can reacquaint myself with mother nature. it's been awhile anyway.
what will i eat? preferably food. since i'm doing this on a budget, i'm going to stick to more homemade, thrown-together meals and limit restaurant consumption.
what if i run out of money? then i'll turn around and come home. the point of this trip is to learn that you can't always plan for life. sometimes the unexpected happens and you need to be able to cope. though san diego is my destination, if i can't make it there, it's not the end of the world. don't focus so much on the end point but on the journey along the way.
what if i meet the wrong person in a dark alley?? fortunately for me, when i was at super ninja training school last year, i learned just how to deal with this situation. or not. how about we just hope for the best on this one? and if not for the best, at least hope that my mace will spray them in both eyes and up the nose (with my luck, i'd probably have it facing the wrong way and spray myself...), disabling them long enough for to me to run screaming like a little girl (hey! i'm allowed! i am one!) in the other direction. not, of course, until i knee him (or her--let's be politically correct, here) in the groin and smash all of his (or her!!) toes with my heel for dramatic effect.
now i feel much better. still a little stressed... but i think that it's just going to take me leaving before i'll truly calm down. or maybe i'll just get worse. we'll see.
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good luck, steph. i don't think i could do it. not because i would be scared, necessarily, although, i'm sure that wouldn't be out of the question, but because i would get entirely too bored. and because i'd probably fall asleep at the wheel or something. anyway, hope you are safe. i'll be following your blog. (mine is: stephaniealand.blogspot.com).
ReplyDeletei shall miss you. take lots of pictures, especially of the random weird people that talk to you along the way -- or the cool ones, whichever.
ReplyDeleteread my blog too! i'll try and write more.. anyways, you'll be on my links of websites to visit DAILY! feel special, feel very special.
love you, lover!
Hey it's Adam. I think this is awesome! Maybe it sounds kind of lame, but I thought perhaps you could do something for me. It's a bit Elizabethtownish but oh well. As you are driving along, if a town or scene strikes you a certain way, write down a song that reminds you of it... I love the way songs can become sort of a soundtrack for life. Think about it!
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Ooo nice. That should be a good experience! However, you forgot to include some things in your worst case scenario. Fire breathing dragons, nuclear missiles, and hungry hungry hippos to name few. :-p You'll be fine! I recommend a northern route through colorado, and don't forget you need to drink at least twice as much out there due to the dry air. Don't forget to keep a couple extra gallons of water in your car in case of breakdown, and a blanket or warm coat for cold desert nights. Hmm enough of that.. Have fun! Be careful :)
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